My gosh!!! Y do i feel so terrible??? Seriously! Having migraine isn't something funny. My head hurts so much yet i can't do anything about it except zZz, but worst is my head is full of thgs - i just can't zZz well -> Probably i'm lack of zZz for the past few days?! What 2 do? 3 papers consecutively in 2 days, then immediately work 2.5 days in a roll... how can i not be STRESS? Haiz... i also dunno why m i so busy! Everyone said i'm very busy, probably i made myself so?! Well... I think it's cuz i'm someone who like 2 be kept occupied, i feel very weird when i'm idle. U might said i'm a workaholic or someone who just have "stings" grown on the butt lah (can't sit still)! Actually i was rather disappointed about myself tdy -> as in i didn't accomplish what i've targeted to do (slacked the whole day), the only productive thing i did was zZz & Dance. I was expecting him 2 be dere, i even tidy up my hair abit (wich i normally dun bother), hoping to leave him a good impression(if he ever notice me). I rushed like mad -- hoping that i'm not late. PHEW!! i reached just on the dot (8pm). Looking around the whole entire studio, i still thought Lionel hasn't reach yet cuz i dun think i c him... But Lionel was there already, WHERE is HE? Is he late again? waiting & waiting... HAiz... i guess i gotta give up hope of seeing him tdy! Probably cuz this new studio is kinda small, so he's not needed to be around. Then lidat jialat lah! Cuz next Mon we R having dance dere again. Then wouldn't i miss another chance of seeing him again? We have only a few more lessons left. Haiz... What a disappointment? ;( Well... @ 1st still tot of gg home straight 2 compensate what i've missed 4 study tdy, but @ the end i went 4 a drink with Big Nic, Audrey & lerxin. What a long time i ever have such a gal-tok already. Even thou they were all toking abt dance (the pple in tis industry), i enjoyed listening - to know more abt it despite i might not know who they are. Then they were mentioning abt yday - actually they went 4 the free dance trial class yday. Haiz.. i still tot they didn't go cuz no one follow up the email. Then i found out tat Andy is only 21 years old. OMG!!! He's so young! I tot he would be like 24-25 lidat (by calculation). Whao... Not bad! DAMN it! Y didn't i go yday? Or else i can get a chance 2 c him already! Wad a waste? After listening 2 all of their discussion on dance, i suddenly have the urge 2 join dance outside eMIX also. But which one shld i choose? Lionel's? Or Studio Wu (most of eMIX gals R in it)? If i choose Lionel's -> then i can c him... haha... oso, cuz they were copmaring him with Ryan they all, saying tat the style is different (Ang-Mo mah!). But nobody accompany me! That's so scary! I think i must really give it a deeper thought 1st cuz it's not cheap lor! hmm... ;? Actually i shldn't feel guilty abt hanging out & not using tat time 2 study cuz i supposed i shld socialize alittle whenever i can. Somemore know more abt my surrounding!!! haha.. well! At least i found out sth abt him. =p That's Y i was qutie interested in the Holloween Party @ Zouk on 31 Oct, sounds so exciting! Esp after hearing Audrey saying how they are gonna dressed up and all... buying all the costume online... But tat's make me wonder wad shld i be wearing?! If not cuz Lerxin asked me, i think i probably will give it a miss again. I supposed it's time 4 me to take breaks occasionally! So thinking of that, i must work even harder than usual now, so i won't feel so guilty abt not studying! =)