"One By One"

Sunday, July 30, 2006
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Final SHOWTIME Reached Raffles Hotel by 12noon, suddenly they asked me how come I don’t have “PINK” component on me! Actually they have planned to have a PINK party tonight after the show. And each of them is supposed to spread the word to 3 people last nite at their supper. But I was all black – at that moment, I really feel very out of place! No one even remember me! Haiz… Even Nic also know! I really feel very sad! Then, luckily I thought of my pink-striped adidas track shoes, which are in the changing room. So I thought it would be alright! After having fried pork chop rice {again}, we went into the theatre. And everyone is so high, they are like started the party immediately. I can understand! I meant it’s the last day! After all these hard work n time, many of us can’t wait for it to end, so we can take a break mann! While waiting, we all kept taking photos, and we took our dance item shots together. Meanwhile, we ourselves kept taking non-stop too! And I’m so happy that I’ve gotta take with Emi, I even talked to her – asked her about her abs training. She said she didn’t do anything about it, but that’s also cuz she dances everyday! That’s why don’t have to purposely train will also have that flat abs lah! I asked Big Nic (senior), she suggested me to do 300 crunches everyday. I thought it’s crazy, so she said start with 100 1st! Alright! I shall start my crunches tmr mann!!! YES! I’m damn motivated now! As successful as expected, the crowd is much more responsive somemore, which gave us lotsa energy and motivation to put up the best that everyone can! And as expected, Mich they all cried, actually I also felt the sense of sadness after the curtain closed! RUMMAGE has finally ended! Then, as everyone is out meeting their friends, I have no one to visit except Damon & Qihui they all. So I left to home early since I have class tmr! Plus, I know my mum misses me – she even called me yday afternoon just to tell me that she nearly woke up late. It has been a long time since I last talk to her, cuz everyday I also have rehearsals, and by the time I reach home, she is already aslept. That’s y! Somemore I thought of showing her my make up (though today’s not as nice as yday), at least can talk to her! The feeling was really very bad! Feeling so lonely and left out, that’s why I don’t even feel motivated to go. Even if I go, I bet I will be standing at one corner and do nothing. Haiz… I’m always an extrovert person, easy going, how come I just can’t mix with them? It has been a few times already lor! L Is it that I’m so unlikable by them? Why they treat me like this? I never do anything to them what?! I’ve tried very hard already, why things just don’t seem to change for the better, but worst? Emilin, Me & Sheryl

(the alumni) Me & Emilin

(My idol - Look at her abs mann?!)

Bollywood !!!

top left (clockwise):

celine, kunali, sue ann, jessica, cheryl, me

justin (center) - the prata man

11:43 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Friday, July 28, 2006
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1st ACTUAL SHOWTIME (Saturday) As I was lacked of sleep (reached home quite late), today we had to report pretty early. Anyway, the lunch sucks – Char Siew / Fried chicken rice. Haiz… having no other options, I chose the Char Siew one… and there I broke my routine! Haiz… Eating so much more than usual, I think I’m psychologically stressed! Probably lately I have been keep thinking of food & diet, so I tend to eat more. But actually everytime I perform, I always ended up eating more than usual, but the thing is that I don’t use as much energy as I thought I would – for instance, I’m having rehearsal for the whole entire day today, but most of the time I’m waiting, only dance once or twice. So I’m actually using less energy than usual mann! Haiz… Seeing my oh-xiang (idol) ~ Emi’s abs, “Wah!!!” Seriously very envious lor! Even Ellie they all saw her off stage yday also said her abs is so nice lor! I wish I could be like her mann! Plus her dance is so prof n good lor! I really very inspired by her! Though she might look very rugged, actually she is very “childish” & girly at times. She can be very “dare” one lor! Too bad, she taught me b4, and I don’t really know how to blend into the alumni, so I can only observe her from far! I really wana be like her mann!!! Well… After all our hardwork, everyone rushed out to meet their friends / supporters, whereas I’m just standing alone and packed my bag, don’t know where to go. Surprisingly, I thought I just “say-say” only, but louis really bought me flower! Haha… at least I don’t feel so pai seh – where everyone else is holding flowers [excluding the sunflowers that given by my choreographer & mich & Amanda]! Thanks Louis! Eventually, cuz everyone has their own program after the show, as for me – nowhere to go, and I just remembered that Becky they all went for Ballet Under the Stars, so I met them up. At the end, as Becky don’t wana go home too early, so we stayed at Ben & Jerry @ The Cathy till we missed our last bus, and we ended up have to take cab home! So we have decided that we won’t go home after the last bus!

Louis came to support~ Thanks!

"ARGH!!!" Melvin, Me & WeiDa

Carol Cheong [the main choreographer for RUMMAGE] & Me

Janney [(indonesian) closest in RUMMAGE & one who intro me abt the detox diet] & Moi

Me & my Bollywood Choreographer [Sheila] Me & Long-er (gangster role in RUMMAGE) FRIDAY Today is my very 1st show case – though it’s not the actual show, it’s still showing to the public! Actually, I’m not that keen at the beginning of the rehearsal, but just thought of zhuang, ellie, chin & joyce are coming tonight to support me, I’m very very happy! And very excited! In my mind, I just focus on doing my best to show to them! haha… Well… it turned out to be quite alright! And after the “show”, I met up with them at Raffles City Café Cartel! Stupid me – kept wondering outside the café, and worst, I called every single one of them, but no one picked up, I got so worried and freak out – thinking is it that they played a prank on me?! Oh mann… When I was just about to go home, I saw them! They were all sitting in the center – blocked by others. Unexpectedly, they bought me flowers! Haha... so surprised! I’m so happy! I thought they have already finished eating, but actually they still have one more dish – fried veggies. Cuz they gave us very little portion, so I asked for more (for them), yet stupid joyce just kept laughing non-stop, she said the way I asked very funny! ~ hmm… is it? But I’m really very glad to see u all – 208! Haha… the best morale support ever! As u all know, I’m not that close to the people in dance, and as I’m only performing one item, many of them have more interactions with others. I tried to make myself known to people that I’m around, but sometimes it’s just very hard to blend in, especially when the people are of different style / personality. So it’ll be even harder. Plus, I know some of them don’t really like me, and I can nothing do nothing about it except keeping quiet. It has been tough for me, but I’m pulling it through, just hope that time can pass sooner and this will be over! Just hope that 208 can continue to support me for the upcoming pageant! J I’ll do my best! Yeah! the flowers that 208 bought 4 me!

208 [those who came to support me!] ~ Thanks!

mixed fried veggie

~Yummy! Me in my Bollywood Costume! ~ Pretty?

10:01 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Tuesday, July 25, 2006
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Rush... Rush... Rush & Rush... Today is my very 1st clothes fitting for the Pageant - BUFFALO, at Marina Square - it's a jeans (mainly) boutique, their jeans quite expensive ($300+). Because i'm supposed to be 1 of the 5 that need to do a short 15 seconds video clip (interview -> self-introduction), i rushed down to my mum's facial beautian immediately after my work. But before that, cuz yday i collected my favourite hairpin, so i missed my bus. While waiting, i had my green apple for my dinner. *so poor thing rite?! *sobsob* Once i got home, put down my lappie, i "flew" to her place there cuz i was late for my appointment, luckily i told her yday, or else she must have left. With her professional skills & my "up-to-standard" facial features, she just did a very simple look (basic but yet can be seen). Just happened that she bought a new eye-shadow, which is the same color as my skirt (TURQOISE) - just nice! can match! haha... GOD is On my side too!!! YEAH!!! So within an hour, she completed my simple yet pretty look! Though i was late for the appointment (supposed to meet at 7pm), i managed to get there before 8pm. Thanks to the unexpected smooth traffic! Ran like a chicken & duck to the shop, then i realized that they (the guys) are still trying the clothes, where the girls are outside strolling [due to the limited no. of fitting rooms]. Surprisingly, i saw Krupa & Kenny (whom i know), and Shawn (edwin's bro)! Wah.. maybe cuz i saw familiar faces, that's y i feel more at ease! Soon, Monica they all came back, "Wah Nat! How come your eyes so nice?" Very tempted to reply her - cuz my eyes are nice & i'm borned with them!!! haha... But i just said, "huh?! what do u mean my eyes are nice? my eyes are like that one what?!" Immediately she said, "Oh oh.. i mean the color of ur eye-shadow!" Wah... haha.. just feel so YA-YA {finally}, still remember the way she asked me on last friday!!! haha... that's y i feel so much more confident & happy now!!! YEAH!!! When it's our turn, i rummaged the whole place but still cant really anything that i like! Oh mann... What a lousy sponsor!!! Then, stupid Kenny (President of biz com) kept disturbing me - "reminding" me the importance of my choice of clothes - not only i will be wearing them on that day, i'll be taking photos in that, and the posters will be double of A1 size, and will be pasted everywhere (School, MOS...) Really stress me out mann! And i think i must be very lucky, i was one of the faster to get my set of clothes (all seem to be quite fitting). Whereas others took quite a long time as the clothes are like hanging on them! But my spag to is very simple, and it's quite low-cut! when i wore it, can see my "clivage" (don't know how to spell)! - so paiseh lah! i tot they won't notice, but actually NO! They saw! Melissa (the short one) & Shun Man (the HK one) [both are year 1] were admiring lor! aiya... teased me till i so paiseh! oh mann.. so i hurried up find a jacket to cover abit! But the shop really very dumb, they don't replenish those sizes that are out of stock! So i can only pick the smallest on display - which is LARGE! luckily it's just a jacket, i can wear it loose loose! Later, we had to be filmed as if we were first coming in to the shop n choose the clothes - so spastic lor! Finally, it's interview recording time! I didnt really see how the guys did, cuz i was trying the clothes. But managed to peep at one (Ryan), and as expected, he looked rather serious! As for Melissa (small & skinny one), she looked damn stressed, kept forgetting her lines. She took so long till her face also "melted"! (i meant her make up!) Being the last one, i was assigned to sit at the chair. Just so happen that i was wearing my fav turqoise flare skirt, i overheard 1 of the guys commented that i looked very glam! <-- this boosted up my confidnce even higher! YEah! Now i have even stronger & more confidence that i can WIN this contest, at least i can beat that irritating MONN - YEAH! Living up to my "promise", i only took 1 shot to get my interview done! Initially they said mine was too short, but this is just my style - short & sweet, and i care more for presentation! I managed to do it in 16 seconds! haha... I knew my speech is very different & unique, i wanted to shocked everyone by my 1-shot. but cuz the camera man wana me go through one technical run, so i didn't managed to amazed everyone as i thought; But well... i still managed to get everyone laugh & now, all the guys keeps using that "outstanding key sentence" to tease me! Nevertheless, i really think that everything is working very well for me. i hope for all the upcoming events regarding to this pageant contest, will be as smooth & good & perfect for me! I really hope i can win this contest! Now my immediate goal is to lose weight to raise my competency mann! They all damn skinny & i look so fat when i stand beside them! Yux!!! I must really work hard mann! Haiz... Stressed!

11:13 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Monday, July 24, 2006
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LOSING = worst situation that i ever wana experience ~ I LOST My Favourite HAIRPIN !!!

Rushing to school 4 my lesson, as i was searching for my favourite hairpin, i realised i've lost it! so for the rest of my lesson, i couldn't focus at all. So finally it's BREAK TIME! i ran down to search for it, returning to the exact route that i took from the bus stop to school. But due to limited break time given, i had to go back to class after i went 2 toliet & refill my water bottle. So sad!

Even during lunchtime - Sylvia & i went to Raffles City for lunch @ Soup Spoon, i really walked the exact route from the bus stop to school - but i still cant find it! I must have lost it! HOW? i remember that pin was the last one already! i don't mind buying it again, even though it is quite costly, the thing is that there isn't anymore stock!

Actually i tot of gg down to orchard to buy it during lunch time (2 hours), but cuz sylvia said i "xiao" (crazy), so i just bear with my impatience & went down immediately straight after class ended.

Thinking that Wisma Isetan might have, so i tried my luck! Unfortunately, there don't even have that brand! So holding my last hope, i went back to Shaw Center Isetan & search... Oh mann... i cant find it! I even check with the salesgirl, there isn't any of such design, not even similar one! They must have sold out / changed season! Haiz...

After describing to the salesgirl how it looks, then she pointed out it's the neighbouring section! Oopppsss... still thought it'll be hopelss for me! But NO!!! YES!!! i mean YES! there's still have the design!!! But there's no more RED color one! SHarks!!

Well... Lucky me! They can actually customised and made a brand-new one for me! YEAH!!! Though i have to pay a full price (u mean additional cost to those normal ones?!)! NO!!! She (sales woman) meant i have to pay the normal price ($15). Aiya... at that point of time, the price really doesn't matter to me! I'm willing to pay! That's almost the 1st time i felt that way! This lesson really teaches me that sometimes, when u really love/ adores soemthing, $$$ won't be a factor in ur purchasing!

Nice enough, initially i can only collect the pin on friday, but the auntie made it ready for collection tmr! Yes! i can use it already !!! haha... SO HAPPIE! Really freak me out mann... Now i will never dare to clip my hairpin (half way through) my pants pocket anymore!

**btw, i bumped into Karmene as i was walking to isetan shaw center! What a coincidence?!

11:01 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Sunday, July 23, 2006
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+ FuLL dReSSed ReHearSaL + Today is our very 1st day of full dress rehearsal - Really tiring! As my item has 2 colors for the top - Red & Green. I expected Kunali surely will give a the green one (not so good looking one), but i didn't realized that she also gave me the one in worst condition - for the jewelleries. haiz... as i danced half way, my necklace broke - all the beads dropped all over the place; oh my gosh mann!!! Feeling quite good about my rehearsal, cuz i always give all out for every run, i believe that if i can give my very best, i can improve more, and perform better! So that's y it's such a tiring day! Plus all the changing of clothes... Whenever it comes to the Hip Hop I item, i will surely view the whole thing, cuz my new dance inspiration idol - Emilin is dancing! She is really very good! Looking so cool & styled! I wish i can be & dance like her mann!!! Woo... When i was on my way home, suddenly i received a call from Biz.com, regarding the pageant contest! As next tues is our very 1st clothes-fitting day, i'm one of the 5's being selected to do a short video on tues (the rest will be done on the 2nd clothes fitting session). i'm supposed to answer the questions (though they said it's just guidelines) in my 5 min video shot! Oh mann.. i hate that lor! i'm always sux at introducing myself, especially now my answer has to interest everyone as far as possible! What should i do? Oh mann... ARGH!!!

12:58 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Saturday, July 22, 2006
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Surprises!!! oh mann... what a surprise call from Eileen (my former classmate)!? i've been selected for the BASH pegeant! Oh mann... i'm shocked! i thought i didnt get selected cuz so far i haven't hear any news at all! Anyway, now i'm damn high spirit 2 lose weight already! don't care if it's the correct way or not, i just have to lose mann... i have to lose my chubbiness & the whole body! there'll be sponsors lor! N it's the brand Buffalo! It's a jeans brand (if i'm not wrong)! Oh mann.. i'm gonna skip dinner from now onwards, eat less & work out as much as possible mann.. hopefully i can see much results & be able to dahan for my stomach grounding! Please help me! this is one in my lifetime! i have to do it mann... :) Please help me to lose it fast n lots!!! Please!!!

1:36 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Friday, July 21, 2006
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@nother SPOILT day... Haiz... Yday i was rushing off after work to school, so worried that i can't make it & will get scolding from Mich again. So i rushed like really mad - went 2 Novena Square to buy more strawberries, then just happened to see some small food fest (push carts) along the centre, so i just bought my dinner - but i bought hor-fun & noodles (with doufu, veggie & fish), and i was so impatient that i ate while i was waiting for the bus. But i feel that i might not have enough time to eat later, and i'm kinda hungry (maybe just psychological), i bought da-bao, and stupid me - just cuz the person induced me with the promotion of 2 for $2.50 (where 1 for $1.50); then i bought 2. my craving for BAO at that time was kinda irressitable, so.. that's y i gave in. After gorging the 1st Da Bao, i was kinda full. But cuz after i reached home, my brain thought of bread, so i just stuffed myself with more bread (from home) & finished off the other da bao. Not only that, i finished up all the "liao" (dishes) & ate some noodles (luckily i didnt finish eating all the noodles - i saved it for my mum 4 her breakfast today). *phew! or else i really don't know how to lose back mann... But all my rushing was kinda redundant cuz there were many people late, i think i'm really just dumb lah! everyone will be coming from work, surely will have people be late. Haiz... ended up me with a bloated stomach. Then, i realized that the detox program needs at least 2 weeks to see results. i think i was just too impatient! now supposedly i have to re-start everything again. Haiz.. but to be less demoralizing, i think i will just continue rather than take it as re-start everything again! or else i think i might not be motivated to do again! Stupid me! Anyway, though i was not really involved in the finale rehearsal yday, but i just go and learn the 2-eights (count) for the finale. As they were discussing & trying to clean up the positions, i was practising the steps on my own, then i saw Emilin was looking at me, and smiled at me. So embarrassing! i think she saw me practising?! does it mean a good sign - show that i'm hardworking? haha.. or just a form of courtesy? Actually not only her lah! Other alumni (Sheryl & one more who i don't know her name) also always smile at me when they see me, say hello to me somemore. Actually they are not as bad as what i thought, i used to think that they are very "dao" & attitude one! but i guess i'm wrong! really cant judge a book by its cover!!! i think it must be the biscuits i ate 2 days ago, plus recently very hectic, not enough zZz, now i'm having sore throat! i think i'm falling sick! Sharks! But luckily my joints (ankles & knee) not as pain as yday, yday those parts were suffering from sharp pain, i think it must be cuz i didn't land properly when i jumped on wed rehearsals. i just hope it won't be worsen lah! Well.. now i'm determined again to go on a super healthy diet again! actually i can eat hor-fun and carrot cake, those that made of rice flour, as long as not "mian fen" (normal flour), cuz i think it's cuz it will expand or something. But seriously, it's quite true! everytime after i eat confectionary, i'll kinda feel bloated, provided that i eat alot at a time. i was bloated the whole evening last nite, and i was so guilty! how i wish i didn't eat yday mann... haiz... nvm! shall move forward & be patient now! at least now i noe i've more choices of food to choose from! YEAH!

8:27 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

+ 1st pageant meeting + feeling quite sick, initially i didn't thought i gg out anymore, but at the end i changed my mind cuz i'm so tempted to go n take a look at the sports bazaa @ Isetan Shaw, so i treated Wenying PepperLunch for dinner [cuz i promised her b4, besides, it cost me $0 as i've a voucher]; then just happened tat i finally met GuanJie working @ the gelato bar (outside shaw centre), and just happened that it was his last day, so he treated me a free cup of ice cream - LARGE size somemore! (S$6.90 leh!) Unfortunately, i've sore throat & it's a gd excuse to stop myself from the temptation, in fact, i dont fancy lah! cuz WY chose all the ultra sweet flavours (mango & lychee). cuz she wana finish the huge cup of ice cream b4 gg in to see clothes, this is my 1st time seeing people so not enjoying her huge free famous gelato, haha... eventually, AGAIN! she didnt get anything but i got a 3-quart pants (black one) , last piece lah! not bad! haha... Though it was quite a fun evening, but just thought of the meeting i had with the other contestants, the nite was not tat great afterall ... Monica [from dance also; 1 of the contestants] reached later than me, but once she reached, "hey nat! wad r u doing here? wad r u doing here?" having not harmful intention, i just wanted say we r here for the same reason, "oh.. then why are here then?" "huh?! u mean u r in the pageant? i thought it's Chloe [from salsa]?!" she exclaimed. i just act blur, but telling the truth, "oh is it?! i don't know!" i felt so damn insulted & offended, she is like implying that i dun have the quality to be in this contest?! what lau eh?! WY also reacted very strongly after i told her, "she thinks she very pretty kind is it?!" U c... Even WY also can tell from just this little conversation! My mum also agrees! & finally my reflexes R fast enough to protect myself by reply her. *YEAH! but i was pretty stressed up with the other contestants, altogether 10 of us, 5 gals & 5 guys;; for gals, 2 freshman (year 1), 2 year three (me n monica) & 1 year four (who is still in oversea); whereas for guys, except 4 one year three - jason (my ex-classmate), the rest r all yr one. & quite luckily that i paired up with quite a cute guy, thou he's also among the shortest. he's quite talkative also lah! not bad! while we were waiting 4 seats @ NYDC (wheelock place), we were trying to socialize. Monica immediately chatted non-stop with her partner, whereas my partner and one more guy knew beforehand, and the 2 gals also knew each other b4, so i was the one left out. But just happened tat one of the gals is hongkonger too! so easier 4 me to blend into them! and they both are quite friendly, so i wasn't tat stressed up! not bad! as i was sharing my SMU experiences (as usual, what else is there to start as conversation for strangers, juniors & seniors?) Monica interrupted, "what are u teaching them?" i was like... erm... why must she interrupt? must be she is jealous / threaten to c me blending quite well wiht the others?! hmm... while WY was waiting 4 me, she purposely walked pass to see how the other gals look like, like i said, (she also agrees) they are very skinny! which make me look the fattest lor! haiz... :( that's why i'm so driven to exercise & eat healthy now! must really work hard mann.. what a pressure?! WY also commented that i'm very different from them - though she doesn't know how to say it, what she meant is that i'm the only more nerdy one (perhaps), the rest all got the party look, they will dress up, all of them put eyeliner & mascara, unlike me, bare face (somemore i was in spects)! Probably this is just the way to differentiate myself frm the rest?! haha... *what a self-consolation?!*

1:07 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Thursday, July 20, 2006
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My 1st day leave 4 RUMMAGE ... Finally i can wake up late again! YES!! But kinda blur blur when i woke up cuz i think the sleeping hours were abit "unusual"! In fact, i woke up cuz of my stomach --> hungry! So i was trying to find healthy food (as far as possible) to fill up my stomach! But at the end, despite i have eaten up all the healthier food, my stomach still doesn't feel full, so i ended up munching on bread & biscuits. *Sigh* I guess it's cuz of my weak determination in keeping the diet? Maybe it's cuz the temptation was just too strong! Actually also it's cuz of the timing for the rehearsal, nowadays i cant bear to leave my stomach grounding, unlike in the past, i can just skip meals very easily (once i'm busy). Maybe that's y i can be so thin last time!? rushing down to school after all the over-dosage of biscuits, i was late! SHIT! i thought i wouldn't be too bad since no one has called me, but... when i reached, i saw Mich there - sianz... don't know why everytime she will be around whenever i'm late, yet she won't be when i'm early! so she kinda not happy that i'm late! Haiz... i think it's just my luck! :( Well... i was kinda lathargic today - i don't know why?! perhaps it's cuz of my zZz hours? or cuz of all the sugar-rush from my big n huge breakfast?! I keep feeling very tired & wish to rest rather than practising. But all of them keep on trying n trying, until Sheila came. After Sheila came, things get worst - cuz she was "cleaning up" our steps in very fine-details. As for me, i always give my best whenever i'm rehearasing with everyone, so the repetative of practices really zapping all my energy! Perhaps it's also good - can help me burn off all the nonsense i consumed in the morny! initially i was dying to see 3pm shown on the clock, but surprisingly, time flies, it was 2pm when i looked at the clock! & as usual, Sheila let us off early (2.30pm like that). I guess she must be tired also! Nevertheless, i must really thank her for being so patient with me, i have heard alot about her bad temper, impatience... but appearantly she has been very nice with us, especially me, maybe it's cuz she can sense the seriousness & sincerity in learning it? that's y she is so nice with me? or maybe she has changed? ~ anyway, thanks! Though it's hard & tedious, but i can feel the improvement in my dance, especially in the full run rehearsal in the evening... cuz of the full run rehearsal, i'm only free in the afternoon, initially i thought of going shopping with Zhuang / Chun Jing, but... luckily zhuang didn't wana go, cuz i was so tired that i went home n zZz (at the end). it's really very exhausting, i was so tired that i didnt even wana eat. But i just bot soya-bean (dou hui) home, just in case i wana eat later b4 going back to sch. At the end, i ate bread again (after the dou-hui). Oh mann... my diet is really getting out of hand! i don't know what's wrong with me? is it cuz i've lost my motivation cuz i only lost 0.4 kg? Or is it just that i wana "spoil" (or should i say "indulge"?) myself for this while? ~ i don't know! Just b4 my item, Kunali (quite irritating indian girl kum treasurer of my dance club) suddenly asked me to put on the rented costume and dance, even to put up the top. i was quite unhappy, cuz it makes me look like a clown more than asking me to show to carol. Why i say tat is cuz she get Celine (her good friend, also in my dance item) to wear the prettier & nicer costume (which we will probably be using) to dance, while i'm getting the not-so-nice, and probably won't be used costume, what the hell? what lau?! it just make me feel that i'm being pushed around / bullied. M i always so weak? Or cuz being nice will end up with such treatment? That's really very disappointing! Haiz...

One more disappointment, i just received a forward mail - (as predicted) Monica has been selected for the pegeant. But i haven't receive any notice yet. So i guess i didn't get selected! Haiz... i still thought i would have a lifetime experience for joining such contest! Well... no hope already! sianz... :(

12:05 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
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SCARY day (morny & nite) Morny as i walked to bus stop (nowadays i always alight one bus stop earlier cuz i have too much time to spend for waiting for my company bus, instead of waiting there, i rather walk abit more to "waste" time more meaningfully) i saw a few BLACK cats waiting with me at the traffic light, i was trying to stay calm, but after 1 of them was apparently coming towards me, i got freak out. Perhaps it's cuz of the strawberries that i'm holding?! The fragrance is irresistable! So i walked away... Then, another one started walking towards my direction - Freak! what should i do? i'm stucked - the stupid traffic light is so slow! i walked to the side of the traffic lights, and keep a guard on them. altogether there were 2 black cats & 1 "normal" cat, but all 3 of them were staring at me - tat's so scary! i hurried up crossed the street once the light has changed to red (for the cars), acually i still cant cross, but heck-care lah! my & the strawberries safety (from the cats) are more important! At nite, as i'm meeting zhuang they all to watch PIRATES @ 7.45pm, so i went to GYM 2 run 4 an hour, then meet them 4 dinner b4 the show. Very happy that i accomplished my target (jog for 1 full hour)! YES! But sadly, when i measured my weight - i only lost 0.4 kg, given the fact that i haven't even have my dinner, i think i didn't lose any weight at all! Sianz... It's really very demoralizing cuz i tried to eat healthy, and with the higher activity rate, i should lose weight mah! but how come no effect? remembering that terina said losing 0.5kg a week is a positive sign, so i used that as an excuse to cheer myself up. Anyway, as usual, everyone was late. We rushed 4 our dinner. Unexpectedly, Zhuang actually hasn't buy the tickets yet! Oh no... luckily it's a tuesday evening, we still managed to get quite a good seat! We thought we were late - but as predicted, the show started late! *Phew! Sitting in the middle, throughout the whole show, i kept hearing Chin's high pitch screaming or Joyce's contagious laughters. It's really fun to watch movie with 208 mann... i don't even remember when was the last time i watched movie with them - i think it should be Broke Back mountain? hmm... really quite long huh?!

12:14 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Sunday, July 16, 2006
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A super weird DREAM i had last nite... zZz as much as i could, like the nite b4, i woke up from a weird dream... Being successfully accepted to go 4 a student exchange program with JOYCE & ELEANOR, we were all busy packing our belongings. On the very day of our set off, we were busy shopping with our parents (since our flights are in the evening). Joyce were busy shopping with her mum; Ellie - i'm not very sure; i was busy shopping with my mum too! Then, when it comes to the evening, we were supposed to reach the airport by 10.30 pm, but only Ellie was on time with her sister; while Joyce & I were both late. I was at somewhere [i can't remember], i rushed home then made my way down to airport cuz i forgot to take my camera, as i thought i would have some spare time. Unfortunately, i got up bus 16, i didn't have enough coins [for the bus fare], but the driver allowed me to take the ride. Then, suddenly, the whole setting of the bus has changed - it has turned to be a survey / research focus group for some secretive studies. It become a mysterious room, with the rest of the passengers as the respondents. We sat in a circle, and the inspector was conducting this interview. I was kinda uneasy; worst is that i nearly forgot about my time! i was late! With the traffic jam in orchard, i wouldn't have made it for my flight! Oh no... what should i do? i've been longing for this trip for very long. And being able to go with Joyce & Eleanor, it's really a very wonderful experience that i would never have! HOW??? So i had no choice but excused myself from the interview, despite i would get $$$ as renumeration. Unexpectedly, as i have to leave, the discussion can't go on. So everyone dismissed! i was very worried at first, cuz it seems like some kind of "mafia" meeting - dark, mysterious, desserted... Really make me shiver! Passing some scenes, i finally got up the bus to go to the airport! SURPRISE SURPRISE!!! Guess who did i see? it's JOYCE!!! n her mum. i was so shocked to c both of them here, cuz both of us are late for our flight! Oh no... at that time, it was already 11.30pm, we were late for an hour! Given the traffic jam that we were stucked in, we both thought we would have no hope in getting on to the flight at all. But i just learnt that the flight usually don't fly off so punctually, so we were both hoping that it will wait for us! i really wana go to Japan for this exchange program, as i have already planned my schedule when i get there. i don't wana miss at all! n i noe joyce also very crazy for this program. We were both very sorry for Ellie, who has been waiting for both of us! Sorry! Question: So did we managed to get in time for our flight? i don't know, cuz that was the time when i woke up! but i just thought this is a very weird & funny dream, i don't even remember when was the last time i ever remember any part of my dream! it's really weird!!!

10:42 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

9 full hours of beauty zZz ~ At LAST!!! a Lazy weekend [supposedly] after all the tiring & busy weeks of rehearsals, i can finally zZz till super late & just "Nuao" (slack) @ my comfort home. Woo-hoo!!! i woke up, had my usual freshly squeezed lime juice, be a couch potatoe & watch tv, then, got my lunch & enjoy myself with the long borrowed VCDs [desparate housewives]. suddenly, i received an sms: [from Justin (one of the eMIX dancers - used to be my little crush a few days ago)] "Nat. What time r u coming sch?" ~ i was so shocked. Cuz i thought today is only for the people in finale, how come i'm involved? Although they said everyone will be in the finale at the very beginning, but ever since the finale was choreographed, i'm not inside already. So how come i suddenly will be in? Probably this is part 2 where i will be in?! rushing down to school from my relaxed lunch, cuz of traffic jam, i was late. Luckily i only missed about half-an-hour. But when i reached, i appeared to be invisible, they have already learnt the steps, and Carol (the choreographer) has already placed them in respective position. I cant just join in anyhow cuz there is specific stage position for everyone. Not knowing what to do, i just stood by the side & wait 4 their call (hopefully). i just observed how they danced, and tried to learnt the steps. but even after i've been waited for so long, Carol was still too busy with the entire choreography, so she didnt really plan anything for me yet. fortunately, Nora (my senior, who is the lead character of this dance production) was so nice - she knew that i'm very lonely, and probably feel very odd & left out, so she reminded Carol about me. She came to me & console me, update me with what Carol is doing. She even promised me that she will make sure Carol will put me in, as she doesnt want me to feel left out! at that very moment she said that to me, i really feel like bursting! i felt so touched! i mean all along in this whole dance production, most of the time i felt left out & out of place, i dont know how to blend in comfortably with everyone, i have no one to share my feelings with, i'm not close with any of them, even from the camp, i also hesitated for quite awhile on how should i get into everyone?! perhaps it's cuz i talked to Nora about how i felt for being the secretary, made her understand how lonely & extra i have been feeling. So she is more concerned than anyone else. Thank you Nora! i really feel super touched, at least now i know there is still someone who know my existence! Now i have to wait 4 Carol's plan lor! She said she will make me come out for the last song. ~ sounds like someone important? haha... I guess i'll just be the tiny little role lah! actually when Mich (president of my dance club) raised the issue that i might have to act as the dim-sum lady, cuz of my canto accentl; i was so happy! cuz finally i can abit more than what i have been weak & struggling in, and show abit more of my face, haha... but due to the insufficient time for changing & make up (cuz the acting is just before my dance item, and i only involved in 1001 dance item), so the plan was canceled! Haiz... it's back to square again! my hope is gone! hmm... Well! try 2 look onto the bright side - i won't have to come down 4 the extra rehearsals for the acting parts & able to concentrate more onto my dance item?!

Well... i'm kinda stress now! i can foresee that my stressful days has just began!

: internship :

:: Rummage Dance Concert ::

::: summer course (Human Capital Management) :::

:::: School term (4 modules with 3 exams - most likely) ::::

This "chu-chu" (non-stop) train is really keeping my super busy! I doubt i can really breath!!! ARGH ... :O

in the evening, i supposed to go 4 mich's bday party, but i was too tired, and i'm not that close with her. so i didnt go but met my mum 4 dinner @ parkway sake sushi. we ate quite alot, and also, i kept eyeing @ the sushi coming on the belt, i wasn't really paying 100% attention to her conversation... *oppz... but i think their sushi is not good seriously! i thought of eating sushi cuz i can eat fresh fish; at least steam or raw fish, but unfortunately, i was wrong. most of their sushi are made of fried ingredients inside, i doubt it's of any health value?! but i thought this could be an encouragement for my detox program to go on; positively, it has pasted one week already! resisting myself from all the junks, and overeating; i think i have succeeded! perhaps it's just psychological effects, and cuz my weighing machine has some problem, i guess i have to check with the school gym weighing machine. Hopefully i'm really losing weight now! but i think i can feel that i have shedded off alittle! ~ hope i'm right lah!!! :)

1:29 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Saturday, July 15, 2006
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... dance pressure ... voucher pressure ... Last nite i just had a rehearsal with my choreographer - Sheila. I thought i could show her my hardwork, but... i think i was too tensed, and too focused in my steps, i didn't dance well. And worst, i made her frustrated again! i know she must have known that i have put in alot of hardwork, but things just don't turn out right! My stupid legs & hands just don't know how to coordinate! my body was too stiff, i don't know how to control the muscles appropriately! Seriously, dance might not as easy as what u think! it's really very demoralizing! i have tried so hard, but i just cant get it! before we left, sheila said that my steps are still not clean enough & i need alot of practices! sometimes i also feel very frustrated with myself, how come i just can't dance well? others can do it, why can't i? i might be slower than others in learning, but after all the practices, i should be able to catch up with them, but apparently i just not doing it correctly! What's the matter with me? Why m i so dumb? Haiz... Yday also quite a day for me! cuz yday was the last day for my MANGO (boutique) voucher - Bday present from Becky - i rushed down to Mango at Taka immediately after work, hoping that they can really extend my expiry date since they are having sales now, my voucher surely can't be used! but surpriningly, it can still be used! haha.. YES!!! searching high n low for all the clothes there, i can't find anything that i like except for the very 1st item that caught my attention - a white mini jacket. actually i also "spotted" a white pants, but it's too costly for such a pants (S$75), and i think the jacket will be more versatile, so i got the jacket instead! since both are new collection, so i can still buy that pants in future since they both have no discount! initially i wanted to get a dress, but one of them was too long; the others are too formal for me. Plus i hardly wear dress nowdays, [unlike last time, i could still wear for Adrian] so i thought i should get something that i can wear more often! Surprisingly, now MANGO still have quite alot small sizes for their items, and now u can walk in and shop at your very own comfort zone. Actually it's not bad lah! bUt cuz of the sales, i really won't bear to spend so much on MANGO. Then, just thinking of going down to the foodcourt 2 have my mixed-veggie rice 4 dinner, i happened to saw a bag. After an enjoyble chat with the salesgirl, i think i was abit moved - i bought that bag. But if i'm not wrong, i have seen that bag before & i remembered it's quite expensive. Anyway, it's after 40%, so paying S$38 for such an unique bag, i think it's still quite worth it. Besides, i have not go shopping for super long, probably this can treat as a little pamper for myself?!

11:25 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Friday, July 14, 2006
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SHITTtttt.... ** This entry might contains disgusting & gross contents, you R advised not to eat b4 / while eating; and u r only allowed 2 read if u R 18 & above... Please NOTE!** For the past few days [from Mon onwards], my detox porgram has been working very well; and i'm very satisfied with myself to be able to keep to the program so closely! By staying positive & hard work, i believe i'll be able to maintain such habit for the next 3 weeks [i'm making 1 month as my target!] With the help of the dance production rehearsals, i have more motivation to exercise more. i'm intended to work out everyday, even though there's no rehearsal! [actually this is as prescribed in the program requirement] Feeling kinda tired yday though; i had dance rehearsal. And this Fri (tonight) i'll be having dance rehearsal again! Well... it's not so much of the dance rehearsal that causing me this tiredness, but it's more like the accumulated after-effect that makes me feel lazy. But i know this will pass very soon, and i'm looking forward to c the results of my hardwork! YES!! i met up with Wei Cheng 4 awhile, i thought i would just meet up for really a short while, but as i was sharing with my latest news, then we went home alittle late. [Here's the ** Part] Once i reached home, i rushed to the toilet immediately... Stucked in the toilet bowl until my legs cramped, yet i still cant "pushed" the SHIT out! OMG! i can feel that it's coming out, i tried my very best to force it out, but... despite i hold my anus in that "expanded position", the stupid stubborn SHIT just refused to come out. At that moment, i was imagining how bad i would be when i give birth in future, i really think this "hardwork" is so comparable to giving birth. [i'm not exaggerating! i believe many of u have experienced when u wana SHIT, yet it just cant be released out; that is the worst time of SHITTING mann...] i know this must be caused by heatiness because i eat lotsa veggie & fruits everyday now, probably cuz i drink too much tea these few days, which dehydrated my body [internally]?! So i've decided to drink more water instead of tea. Anyway, back to the HARDTIME i had: i have tried all ways - pressed my tummy; say "hmmm..."; curled my body, leaned back to straighten my body... But i still cant SHIT; So last resort - used those "squeeze squeeze" [liquid that used to squeezed into the anus to smoothen & soften the SHIT, so that it can come out. It's used mainly for constipation]. But it took me a long time just to get up of the toilet bowl cuz my legs were very weak. And my butt was suffering from tremendous pain from the "expansion & contraction". Waited a short while, my tummy still aching, but the SHIT still can't come out. So i beared with the pain & tried to bath. It was horrible! i felt chilled and kept shivering when i was bathing. After a clean shower, i couldn't even walk, but just trying to keep my legs together cuz my legs were "strength-less". i cant even stand or lie comfortably on bed. Giving up the thought of preparing my lunch for today, i just went to bed. Surprisingly, i woke up in the middle of the night & finally SHIT-ted. This was the greatest moment of the evening! I was hoping for such moment for damn long mann... FINALLY! My entire anus was so much relieved & I finally can zZz comfortably. Well... I guess this is really a "lesson" & reflection time for me... Though i was suffering in pain, and nearly felt asleep while trying to get rid of it, i have thought through many things which is why i'm blogging this indifferent experience. Hope that u won't be too turned off with my content of this entry.

7:58 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
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Today is so WET ! Not only the SKY is WET this morny when I was on my way to work, it's also "wet" when i was at my office pantry! i spilled my water bottle - luckily it was only room temperature water. Otherwise, i think i'm doomed!!! Still got a long day to go mann... Luckily i asked HX when is she flying off this morny! This stupid woman is actually leaving tonight, without any advance notice! What rubbish?! Well... Though it's last min, we - 208 - will still go n send her off! And i guess we will be able to meet Chun Jing's Beloved S.O.C. (Scottish Borned Chinese) BF - Gordon! haha...

1:17 PM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

There is 1st time for everything! ‘n’ Yday was my 1st day… Yday I was so happy to [so-called] completed my CHOCOLATE flavour flyer design, so I thought I could leave my lappie in office’s locker. Furthermore, I’m going to gym with Terina at night, so I thought I won’t really have time to go online. I guess I was being too smart – when I was on the bus [on the way to Novena], then I realized that I my house keys & bus pass were inside my laptop bag! DAMN IT!!! ARGH! I suddenly felt so lost & sianz… I’m not worrying that my lappie will be stole since I’ve left it before, but it’s cuz of my HOUSE KEYS!!! I’ve never go out without my house keys, I think that’s y I felt so insecure & kinda lost, I can’t go home! Even if I don’t have my bus pass, I could still use cash 4 transport, but without house keys? I can’t get in my house. As my mum has OT till 9+ [probably will only be back around 10pm], so I have no choice but to postpone my gym session to today & call up friend to meet up, so as to spend my time more “meaningfully”. I called up Damon, initially I thought of asking him 4 a lift back to office 2 get my keys & bus pass, but he ends work at 6.30pm, by the time we reach office, I guess they would have closed! So as suggested by Nikki, I just hang out lor! At 1st I thought of going to Great World City 4 Shabu-Shabu, but cuz it’s quite out of the way, n we worried that we might not be able to catch Superman. So we went to a Japanese restaurant @ Taka top floor – hmmm… so yummy! The EEL [their specialty] is so good! “n” we had a grilled fish sushi – warm & unique! Yummy!!! Well… phew! Thanks 2 Damon mann… or else I really don’t know who to call upon! [Since all 208 are working – I can’t visit Joyce cuz her shop can’t have someone to hang around with; Charm – I think probably she’ll be with her mum; and others – I don’t really have mood to hangout with my keys not with me!] That’s why I didn’t call any 20-eighties.

8:41 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Tuesday, July 11, 2006
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Yeah! Great sense of achievement! haha... Here's the start of my 1st day of DETOXICATION! Today i really feel very happy! as in i really made full use of my time: -> i did my very best at work, and came up with quite satisfactory design 4 my "flyer"; now i just wish i can finish it soon, so that i can proceed with my next flavour! *Praying hard it to be STRAWBERRIES!!! -> i kept to my own promise - i exercised for an hour!!! i also cant believe in myself that i actually jogged aimlessly for an hour! i felt so good after jogging, not because of the jog, but more cuz i didn't give up / change my mind and be lazy bum-bum! haha... -> somemore i ate very healthy today! stick to the list of food for the detox program, actually i think this detox program is quite interesting & encouraging, cuz the list serves as a checklist for u to look forward to, like what else u have to eat / can eat! i kinda feel very much motivated! i just hope i can maintain this stamina & motivation throughout till i hit my target!!! thanks 2 Emilin also - cuz i kept thinking of her, which makes me wana to be like her & thereafter, i have to mood to work 4 it! a little regret : i didn't manage to practise much 4 my dance though! i think i shall practise tmr at sch gym! haha... Jia You! Continue to work hard!!! *Self-motivation!*

12:58 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Monday, July 10, 2006
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Slept for THREE hours for the past THREE nitez (each)? I think I’m “SHENG” (GOD) … Jin-Bing (CRAZY)! After a rest nite on Wed, my busy schedule began on Thursday evening… > > Thursday: Rehearsal till 11pm < < We finally finished learning all the steps, but I still have lots more to “clean up” – I’m really slow in catching up the steps! Well… I’m trying very hard; I just hope that I can dance well that nite! But I think Sheila really very experienced, I think she noticed that I didn’t practise, probably cuz there isn’t much in my improvement. L >> Friday: BOSS, B.O.S.S & Dance camp @ 7.30pm << I was super stress that day – I didn’t even have appetite to eat, but just work all day long with a small tiny munch 4 lunch; cuz my BOSS seems like rushing me in my work also. I think he also find me working too slowly already! Haiz… Other than that, the most stressful thing is B.O.S.S (bidding system)! My friends all change their bids last minute, and I have already planned my timetable properly, now cuz of them, I have to keep editing my bids. That’s so irritating! Haiz… Y are people so last min & fickle minded? Really pissed me off! Plus I cant log in to Oasis (website 4 BOSS) from my office computer, I have to ask my friend to change 4 me. Sianz… Then, I also dunno why I was so “suay” (unlucky) that day also: In the morny, cuz of the over-crowdedness in the pantry, once I turned my body, I hit on one of the quite “spicy” permanent staff. (I meant not “advisable” to step on her tail kind) Luckily she didn’t angry with me. * She said lah! Don’t know how true it is! Lunchtime, cuz today is all the poly interns last day, I thought of going out lunch with them, so I told Nikki & Wen Ying (whom I always lunch with) not to bring lunch, but unexpectedly, the 2 poly interns (one of them is Lynn from KC) left without asking us! So I didn’t even know that they have left. Nikki asked me to go out 4 lunch on our own, but I was really have no mood to eat. So slamming her locker and she went out 4 lunch with Lydia (another permanent staff). I felt very very bad! I was the one who told her not to bring lunch, yet I didn’t go out with her 4 lunch. On the other hand, I was also unaware that they have already left. So it could probably not totally my fault? But somehow Wen Ying & I are afterall at fault. Cuz we decided not 2 go out 4 lunch, my intention was that Nikki can join Lynn they all 4 lunch, that’s Y I didn’t ask her to bring lunch after we decided on Thursday [after I told both of them not to bring lunch]. Feeling so guilty the whole day! I wanted to apologize, but she rushed off immediately after work, so I sms her. Luckily she wasn’t angry with me! *Phew!* After work, I rushed home immediately. cuz I didn’t eat enough 4 lunch, so I was very hungry. Under pressure from time-constraint, I hurried myself & munch whatever I could find in the house – oats meal, biscuits, milk… I overate so much. *Sharks… A short evening on dance practices & games, we had a production update meeting… Having a huge tin of Kong Guang biscuits in front of me, and everyone is like munching on them, I gave in to my temptation. Haiz… others might be just eating one / two, yet I’m eating like triple of theirs. I couldn’t control myself from eating biscuits, especially it’s like 1+ am already! Oh mann... what’s wrong with me? >> Saturday: 2nd day of dance camp << Subsequently, it has become a habit – on the 2nd nite, though we don’t have meeting at nite, I just munched on biscuits again! Sianz… On the 1st nite, we had a long & draggy meeting, and we (the welfare committee for the camp) only slept an hour! Wow… cuz we had to wake up earlier to prepare breakfast for them. Seeing all the milo, bread, peanut butter, jam, chocolate spread; Oh mann… I can’t stop myself from eating again! I ate like 3 slices of bread with lots of peanut butter & chocolate spread! (Same for 2nd day) Haiz… Really don’t know why I cant stop myself from all these nonsense. Well… though we keep dancing all day long, but I didn’t dance as much as them, cuz I’m only in one item – Bollywood. The rest of them are practising other items cuz those usually involves partner work & more people. So… and also my item is not that “important” as compared to the others. Most of them have gotten the steps except me. So I kept practising alone. Trying hard to keep motivating myself, but… at times I do feel kinda bored lah!

In fact, i do feel kinda out of place from the start of the camp. Cuz i'm not really close with anyone, except (maybe) Nicole? but she is one of the camp IC, so i can hardly talk to her. Fortunately, i'm part of the organising committee, so i can have more chances to talk to her, Rox & Amanda! Otherwise, i'll surely bored to death!

When we had our combined rehearsal (a trial full run), I saw the way that Emilin (my previous dance instructor) danced – WAO… it’s really very nice! I cant stop myself from looking at her. Even though when she was not dancing, I also kept peeping her [I know this sounds very Lesbian, but I’m just admiring her!] Seeing her becoming so thin n lean, I also feel like losing weight immediately, to be like her & the old me! I can really see that she lost weight! I wonder how did she do that? I guess now she will be my motivator for my dance n dietary program. Plus now, I’ve already got a detox program list from Jaenny (my cca mate), I shall try my very best to succeed in my long wanted goal! And finally, we managed to have more zzz… >> Sunday: last day of dance camp<< Yeah! Last day of dance camp! Everyone is having muscles ache, yet I didn’t really feel it. I think it’s cuz I didn’t practise hard enough? ! I only felt a slight muscles ache on Saturday. Damn! I think I only eat but work out enough to burn all the extra calories I put on! Maybe u will think that it is psychology, but I can really tell that I put on weight! The weighing machine said so too! Thought of having no lunch, then I decided to have a healthier lunch; but after a quite healthy & proper lunch, I munched on crystal jade yummy bread again! Haiz… after that, I was so tired, I didn’t even want to bath, but I just dozed off very quickly on the sofa! Waking up for a short while, I zzz again! my mum woke me up a few times, asking me to bath n go to bed, but I was so exhausted that I just went back to zzz on the sofa. Eventually, I woke up n bath, then chatted a little; ironed clothes and then I zzz. Now I really decided to stop munching on all the nonsense & snacks, I must work hard to lose weight! Or else I don’t know how ugly I will be when I wear the Indian costume on the concert! I shall target at Emilin’s flat tummy mann… I really admire her a lot now! I just hope that I can be like her. And to show her that I’ve improved a lot! I don’t want to lose face / be “ma-lu” (embarrassed) in front of her. So, I shall exercise as much as possible everyday now!!! Jia You!!!

8:36 AM
ONE PIECE FEVER =D

Thursday, July 06, 2006
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>> we are supposed to compare Jun Jun B4 & After... so here R the "B4" photos... Charm will be the banker for this bet, if u need further details / information, please refer to Charm --> the smallsma! <<

Jun Jun: B4 (side) Jun Jun : B4

(Front)

Chin, Moi & Jun

Moi & Jun Jun

Luckily we didn't cry! & All of us R in WHITE top except our LEAD ~ Jun Jun.. :: Tired :: i really think that Keff (from my office, one of the high rank person, even higher than my boss) is picking on me! today, as i was eating my oats meal & green apple [breakfast], suddenly Eugene interrupted me, with a little milk mark on the left corner of my mouth. He said i'm not supposed to eat at my desk, he didn't scold me, just warn me nicely, saying that it's ok cuz i din know. but i suspected it's keff cuz i overheard my boss was talking to him on the phone b4 he called me into his room. and b4 tat call, i think keff walked pass my desk. i always think that keff always peeped at what i'm doing one lor! ~ so scary & stressed! i chatted with him b4, his "ENGLAND" is "POWDERFUL" that really pressure me when i talked to him. dere was once, when my boss was away, he warned me not to use my laptop [i guess it's for confidentiality], but the thing is that the company comp is damn lagging, and tat comp (with photoshop) is shared with everyone, cuz tat's the only comp tat has scanner. then i have to keep logging in n out. so time-consuming n interruptive! tat's y i rather spend tat little effort to bring my own n work more efficiently! i was kinda afraid when he questioned me, but later i told WenYing, she said dun care him! though he's higher "rank" than my BOSS, but my BOSS didn't even say anything about it, then it means it's ok! but today my boss "say" me, i dun feel good the whole day! like Nikki said, my reputation seems to be at risk now! haiz... but i mean i only started eating like that cuz i saw the perm staffs also eat at their desk 4 breakfast mah! even my boss also snacked at his desk, it's not tat my breakfast stink the whole office?! really don't know why?! i'm not only eating, but eating while working at the same time lor! really don't know who picked on me?! haiz... reputation is ruined! So sad! still thought he has been saying good things about me [heard from Zhi Yang last friday, Eugene feedback positively to my Prof]. Now i think it might not be true anymore! i have to be extremely careful now mann!!! :( :: time ZOOM so fast :: Suddenly MJ has left 2 Shanghai last nite! now i still can't believe it! hmm... i cant imgine the outing without mj, thou she often the quiet one, but without her, i guess we won't have so many photos uploaded! haha... now i think i have to take over her camera-woman role for our outing! MISS u LOTZ Jun Jun... Feel it's such a pity tat we didn't have a farewell party with u b4 ur trip. Now just hope u will be back soon! Enjoy ur trip! :) This week is really damn busy 4 me! mOn: rehearsal tUeS: send MJ off wEd: ONLY REST DAY tHuRs: rehearsal [again!] fRi-sun: dance camp like everynite also got something ON... no time to rest mann... wana blog also no time lidat! kinda tired! Plus, this week is BOSS , damn sianz.. have to plan! WORST ~ cant find Ka-Kis (friends) to take together. What a lonely new sem?! Now i'm trying to get as many friends as possible ~ at least one per mod.. but some i really just bid on my own cuz i wana the prof quite badly! Just hope i'll meet good GROUP mates lah! just thought of taking same mods with my juniors, i just feel very odd! but actually i think it'll be quite odd for me to attend Advertising [again] as i requested, though my prof said "welcomed back!" but somehow i think it might not be that nice like that. Unfortunately, he has already hired his TA for both of his classes, now i just feel abit out lah! but i just hope tat i won't be, but really will be able to learn lots more! :) Joyce didn't come 4 send Jun Jun off... cuz her grandpa just passed away! :( "I'm sorry for u Joyce! Hope u are ok now! Don't be sad ok?! I & 208 will always be here 4 u!" in fact, i wana blog last sat already, but no time! :: Last Saturday :: my very 1st dance rehearsal, cuz last thurs my choreographer 4got to come [what a waste of time rite ?]! it was quite fun at the beginning. but towards the end, don't know isit cuz i lost focus / it's just my "retarded" limbs which couldn't coordinate to get the moves right?! cuz of me, everyone can't proceed but have to wait till i be able to do it right! feeling super stressed and pai seh, trying my very best to get the steps rite ~ i really hope to finish soon mann... at the certain point of time, i have thought of quitting also, but at that moment, i think i'm so worried that i just wana get it right, so i won't hold everyone back. finally, she said stop [@1pm, supposedly to be end at 2pm] My heart suddenly feel so much lighter ~ Phew! finally i can rest ! i think my stamina really cant take that - thank goodness that i'm just performing 1.5 item lah! small roles... but have to pay $30 for choreography still - so unfair 4 such little learning! feel so cheated! However, after thinking about it, as it's getting closer n closer, i'm kinda looking forward to it! Maybe i asked my friends to come, i can feel their support in me! tat's y i feel more motivated! i even asked my BOSS & Prof to come! haha... my colleagues are coming too! 208 will probably come too! YEAH! i must work hard to put up a good show 4 them mann... :) though it's just a small part, i think it's nice to watch lah! at least it's more worth it than the Stageit ~ Sword has 2 edges... :: Last Friday :: To show face, i had to go 4 the Stageit production (SMU drama theatre club) - Swords Has 2 Egdes... initially thought of going on Thurs nite cuz it's cheaper, but last min i had rehearsal, and HX's 21st bday party changed to Sunday evening, so i went on Friday! Seriously, it was so crap lah! started & ended so strangely! REALLY a surprise mann... When i reached there, surprsingly i met ZHiYang (my ads TA), he's currently working 4 my Ads prof ~ so lucky him! i wish i can work 4 my prof too... unfortunately, my very 1st application alreadygot rejected! ~ Teaching Assistant! Then, i met Jaclyn, Keli they all... chatting non-stop, neglecting Weichen by the side, the show soon begins... surprisingly, we are all sitting in the same LAST row, cuz we got Louis to help us buy tickets. i still thought Louis gave us lousy seats, but Jac suggested that we can shift our chair to the stair behind us, so our view won't be blocked by anybody's head. i thought tat's the hidden meaning of good seats from louis [but actually i found out that, he really didn't manage to get good seats for us -- this shows that Louis is not tat smart afterall! haha...] During the show, WC suddenly just laughed with a comical face, i thought it's cuz of the high-pitch screaming by the maids (actresses), but it's cuz of the POOR acting & director's skills that made him LOL! but i thought that was abit too slow... really didn't expect that he was laughing for that at that time! Soon, 15 min intervals ended. Just b4 the show ended, WC laughed again! and his laughters just passed on to Jac like broken telephone - one after the other - WC to me, then to Jac, then to Keli!

Found out something new: Jac & Keli are together lor! Stupid gal ~ never tell me! :(

Seriously, i felt damn cheated after the show! haiz.. i wish i'm not free at all! Super disappointing! Sorry WC ~ "Hai" u waste $18! But i'm sure this dance concert will surely worth ur $$$ ! Cuz at least got me inside mah! haha.... :: Freshman Bash _ Pageant :: No news as yet! Just wondering, how would i be if i really get in?! hmm.. i also don't know! but kinda excited if i can get in! Hee... really once in a life time mann... Let's c lah!

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