i really think i'm very dumb and blur mann... i made myself so sad for nothing. actually i read wrongly for the info mann... he's still SINGLE, the "men-and-women relationship" is just the people he wants to meet. Not what he is now. Well... What a relieve after reading it mann...! *Phew*

I was rather excited about just now (before class), kind of well-planned on how to get his number and ask him to take a picture with me.. i even "did my research" and asked around how can i ask without being too "aggressive", somemore i'm a shy person... haven't ask a guy for number for very long already... ( u noe what i meant ? cuz usually guys asked for my number instead... haha...)

then just now, i was trying to get closer to him by talking to Lionel, but he stupid dumbo, kept moving around, i could glanced that he was listening and looking at me talking to Lionel, but he just didn't really come closer... and it's so hard 4 me to talk to personally.

Haiz... damn it! so sianz..

i was waiting and waiting... hoping that probably i can ask him after class. But... once again - he was rushing off! What does he have mann? Rushing 4 reincarniation? So dumb ASSSSSS!!! Can't u just stay 4 a little while? I don't know what to do... But just feel very pitiful to let him go. Luckily Big Nic kept encouraging me to go and ask... N also thank GOD the door he tried to open was locked, i ran and what a embarrassment?! i slipped and nearly fell lah.. *heng! i didn't!*

"Are u ok?" he asked. ~ SO pai seh lor...

"Oh... Ya... do u have msn? why don't i send u the photo through msn?" trying to move away from embarrassment...

Trying hard to type in his msn, thinking i might as well get his number also... He is really a dumb ass lor.. i kept asking him, "erm.. ur no (#) 1st..." and he just kept telling me his email address... And with so many things in hand, my clumsiness seemed to have left him with a non-positive impression. But come and think of it, he also very dumb ~ Don't u know how to lend me a hand since u c me so tied up with stuffs? Still said that my HP... (very troublesome) haiz...

M i tat unpleasant? Rushed off again after storing his email address... Still want to take a solo picture with him.. But i missed him already. Don't know where is he rushing off to mann?! Haiz.. so disappointed! Don't think there will be such a chance to take a SOLO picture with him already, unless we both can "develop" further in future lah.. Even Big Nic also said i should take a solo picture with him... She was suggesting "HOPE ST" then take.. but as in he is performing all 14 items, u noe? surely very busy and occupied! how to take pictures with him (solo)? and he is really "pissing me off", "waited 4 him" the whole night, he also never go online... how to continue and Go-4-It? haiz.. seem like really very slim chance of success mann..

So disappointing!!! :(

~hope that my wish can come true mann!!!~