m i really wonder why m i so screwed ?!

tdy i went to sch with super freaky mind - today supposed to have presentation, yet my grp don't even know, we all tot tat it's on week 9 (now is week 6), worst, my prof was so pissed with us (saying tat we r wasting 40 pple's time) and just scolded us in front of the whole class, i was so speechless & sad & pissed, just wanted to shout aloud to let me anger out. i felt so hopeless - cuz the module itself is so opinion-based, plus we can tell that she's rather biased (to "her kind" of pple), i really think my grade is gone again!!! :( after class, we went 2 watch the latin fest at concourse (in sch), i was so shocked 2 c Andy (ex-crush), he looks abit different - probably cuz of his new shorter hairstyle, and he seems to be fairer. i think he didn't see me, unfortunately, or mayb he saw me but couldn't recognise me?! - i'm not surprised. afterall, it's all on my (one) side. luckily i din confess / be too aggressive with getting to know him that time. then, my fds & i went lunch tgr, actually i was still very bothered with my morny class, i wasn't hungry at all, yet cuz they ate, so i went to buy lunch as well. still tot mayb i shall eat healthy and can skip dinner. but... i went home and eat junks (egg rolls, milk, jap fried black beans) again. actually my finance grp mate - julia want to stay back to study tgr, but i was too lazy, so i went home. i dunno why also. julia said i looked very unhappy, and chris (i bumped into when i was leaving sch) thot tat i'm sick, cuz my face looks like one. i mean i agreed that i feel very lethargic, but i've no idea why is it so also? i've been zzz alot lately, and like very slack also.. is it cuz i zzz too much? sometimes i really wonder why am i so negative? so unhappy? always so unhappy... what's bothering me? what's the "dead-knot" in me that i haven't untie? is it possible to untie it? if so, HOW??? can someone help me? i really dunno what's bothering me besides my wt & studies... seems like my luck really as poor as what the zodiac has predicted... BAD!!! even just now i was just about to post this entry, the whole entry just deleted, and i've to retype again... what's going on tdy? why so freaky??? is it my problem? lack of laughter? lack of interaction? i just feel there's much emptiness in me, i dun feel involved and very unoccupied.. very lazy frequently... i never be so lazy - dunno why recently i hardly laugh, like nothing 4 me to laugh about lidat... WHY??? where is the happy n cheerful me gone to?