thinking that i'll probably be there on time, or at most a little late; but ended up i was pretty late! - the last one [from 208] to arrive! Oppzzz... i thought i won't be eating that much, as i was kinda feel very happy with myself for eating very small meals over the past 2 days, [cuz i was staying at home, trying to understand the CAT textbook, exam & assignment submission on wed]. But ended up i ate alot, and i still ate a large piece of bday cake! So guilty! But the cake taste good lah! well... as i reached pretty late, i felt so drifted from them like that. Joyce, Chin, Qing & Charm were next to the food and chit-chatting, while i just felt so odd & out of place, that awkward feeling really make me feel very uneasy! i don't know why also! Is it cuz we have not been meeting up? Or is it just because of myself, scare that Joyce will feel awkward when she sees me- about her bday gift?! I don't know what to say to them at 1st, so i sat beside Becky and chat with her. Then, later, ZeBin[Mama's BF/ my step-father] was kinda funny, he gathered all of us, and played a Q & A [How well u know her darling] game. With much preparation, he even have gifts for those who answer correctly! What an idea? As Mama's theme for the party is Vintage, so there's a best dressed competition, which i didn't know! No wonder Mama thought i was late cuz i was trying to dress up, and no wonder becky kept saying that everyone looks very nice! Hmm.. Now i understand! After a short little catwalk, Ellie has to be blindfolded and guess whose feet [but eventually we just gave her some food to test]. But with one exception, we gave her an insect [plastic] toy to guess, she really thought that would be food also, so she actually bited it! and then, she threw directly to the middle of the pool. Oh no.. Joyce's gift from the Q & A just gone down to the pool!

Planned perfectly, Ze Bin went to get her cake showed her while she was still blind-folded! After singing her a Bday song, Zebin also sang her a Love Song! Wooo... he's really so sweet! Watching him walking up & down, and all that he has done for Ellie, i really envy her to have such a wonderful Bday! at that very moment, how i wish i have a BF who will do all these silly yet lovely things for me! Feel like a melt ice-cream...

"want to grow old with u"...

But unfortunately, according to Qing's "fortune telling" session, i won't have anymore BF, the next one will be my husband. And i'll get married at 28, so i can see that i will just remain single for the next 6 years?! haiz.. so sad rite? Sometimes i really wish there's someone to dote on me, keep me company & "keep me occupied"! What a sad news?! Suddenly i felt so desparate!

our Fortune Guru ~ Master Zhuang

Bday gift from 208 - GUESS Watch

That's why i thought of KH suddenly! After got home, i happened to chat with him online, and ended up we chatted on the phone till Monday morny 5am! Wah... what a long chat! Thinking of our past, we really have alot of silly & funny times together! Suddenly i feel like going back to his side! But i think it's just an impulsive thought lah! Though i know that he still have some feelings for me, but i should not hurt him again! Cuz somehow i feel that we won't have any results! Well... maybe i should go n find some flings to satisfy my tempoary "needs" [keep me occupied]!? haha... what a stupid thought?!