After watching Princess Hours, i just keep thinking back about my dearie... when i was in relationship, i tend to behave like that too... always feel hurt easily, cry is also quite common. But of cos there's time where i'm HAPPY! Suddenly i feel like getting back to the time where i just broke up... though it's heartbroken! But at least that time i had someone to hug me, to pamper me, to cheer me up when i'm down, scold me, miss me... *SiGh... haiz... and that time so was so disheartened, that i just kept myself occupied, and ... eventually lost weight subsocnsciously!

U must think that i'm crazy - i think i'm just desparate & i'm really feel very frustrated with myself for having no control over my diet. Today i was putting on my pants, it used to be loose & comfi, now it's tight & squeezing my fats out! i'm seriously out of shape!

Sometimes i really don't understand why my mum is inconsiderate! She is the one who started showing attitude "What does it mean by leaving all the bowls at the sink?"

"I'm just leaving them there to soak in the water for easier washing later!" i replied.

And what's the reply?

"What kind of attitude is that? Shouting at me now? Think I'm your maid?" she just raised her voice at me cuz she thinks that i'm raising mine!

what the hell? SHE is the one who started using such negative tone & words at me, subconsciously i'll just have to defense myself [plus i hate being accused for nothing], now she is accusing me for showing her attitude! Why can't she be more caring & show concern in a more direct way, rather than using sarcasism?! I hate her sarcaism!

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