just told me mum how miserable and guilty i felt, yet she only gave me the sarcastic reply! --> the adverse effect of losing weight! Now she is saying that i'm not picking up the hang-er that dropped on the floor > which means i'm too lazy to exercise.

i don't agree to her comment: -

as i'm currently eating when i'm hungry - [just that i'm eating unhealthily];

i'm not starving like i used to be;
i'm not only eating one type of food [or fruits]...


i just only feel stressed & using food as a form of escape!


i must be unable to handle the stress that i'm undergoing. what's wrong with me? too bored? sometimes i really hope that i have someone besides me to just support me, hold me, pap on my head, a form of "sayang" to make me feel loved, that i'm not alone! Is that what a BOYfriend is meant to be? does it mean that i need a boi-FRIEND?

sometimes i just feel like falling sick, i rather lying pain on the bed than to be so tortured and feeling don't-know-what-to-do! i feel like i'm in hell to undergo all these negativity!



i noe the junks are bad, but Y can't i stop putting them into my mouth? despite my stomach alrdy feel full! eating has become a SIN to me right now! what shall i do? how to stop eating?

at the back of my mind - i know i hv to eat healthy, i tried! but never sustain! why? what's the reason behind tis? many times i even thot of not going 2 eat for the whole entire dec! u must think i'm crazy! but i can't think logically unless i can get back my old self. somehow i have tot of the possible side-effects i get! maybe i just return back to the sec sch -> me! 54kg? now i'm just not far from it!

i feel like dying! why do i feel so miserable? why is this happening on me?

pretty - NO MORE! FAT-SO - here!

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