This morny i woke up - probably too excited, i only zzz for 4 hours last nite, i woke up and failed to go back to zzz again cuz i was awoke up by my grand aunt's call. *Haiz... But also maybe cuz i've drank too much caffine today?! that's why even though when i was on the way home also can't zzz!

so i cooked an omelette for my mum this morny for Breakfast! hee...

tick - dogg -- tick - dogg -- tick - dogg 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1 woo... 16th JANUARY 2007!!!

~ ~ it has passed 12am already! and it's already 16th Jan 2007. the last digit has changed AGAIN!!! isn't it too soon?

i have a friend just turned twenty-ONE two weeks ago, and here i'm - add ONE! OMG!!!

just now many people wish me - but almost all are of the unexpected - as in the least expected people wished me HAPPIE BDAY! i know this line is very cliche, but i think it serves the meaning to it, if you are indeed sincere in saying that.

on the contrary, none of the 208 people wished me anything, despite they are almost all online - which is quite rarely that they are online at this hours!

R they trying to pretend they have forgotten? or they really have forgotten about the time? - as usual , they are always very last min & never be early enough for full preparation. Even though just now chin asked if i had received her sms about tmr meeting, planning to go to settler's cafe to play some boardgame:~


1. since we have been saying that but never get a chance to go;

2. all of us can kept occupied with the games, it's near our house, even though we are meeting quite late;

3. should be quite affordable, since everyone is saving up $$$


i really don't know what i can do already! even tmr i have no programme in the day; i dont' feel like studying / do sch work, i even give up earning $$ from screening on phone. But no one date me, except when chin probed me if i've any appointment 2 nitez b4. That's why i dont' feel much speciality in this year bday. it's just none other ordinary day like that. i'm no longer looking forward to anymore Bday.

Not happie > Not sad > Not excited >> don't know what i'm feeling now? NUMB??? Perhaps!

i'm intending to make tiramisu for them to eat, but after seeing the receipe, i doubt i know how to make! Sorrie! i might not be able to make for you all! Haiz. think i shall just spend the day alone & probably show face at nite to meet up with them bah! :-] *haha.. haha..*


sometimes i will imagine:
is it that they [208] are planning something behind my back? just so happened that Kok How is free celebrating his friend's bday [super high possibility that is a GIRL! - from his response]...

Imagine: --> maybe 208 has "chained-up" (planned) with KH, make him a surprise for me to appear tmr suddenly?

~ haha... that's such a ridiculous thought! How would he celebrate with his ex-gf friends for his ex's bday? being willing to celeb for his ex is already sth close to zero possibility. so this is a "dehhhh!!!" [Not possible!]

--> erm... i think just don't imagine anymore lah! instead of "day"-dreaming, i think i rather dream on my bed... *haiz...* experience taught me --> you will probably feel much better when u hold no expectations from people! in fact, now i don't even have the mood / motivation to expect on others. Just hope that the gifts are nice (to me) then CAN liao! :)

AGAIN ~ happIe bIrthDay To mYseLf ...

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